The reason I imagine that I will only pass with around a D is because 50% of all the points in the class are from tests. The other 50% comes from random homework checks, quizzes, one presentation, and a participation grade to be decided at the end of the course. In terms of the tests, my last two grades were an F+ and a D-. In order to bring my testing grade average up to a C-, I'd have to get at least an 81% on both of the remaining quarter tests with a 70% on the final test, which may end up being cumulative. What makes me saddest, is I was present for both of the Exam Preparation Days and tried copying all of her notes she wrote down, especially for the 2nd test. Her notes are horrible though... she abbreviates everything, sometimes down to single letters, she writes incredibly small, and I can barely read what she writes, even with my glasses on and sitting very close. She also stands in front of her notes while she's talking about them.
The biggest scare hit me today when we finally got our last test back. I was so sure I got a C on it, and at the very least a D. I know I did better than my first test, which I only got a 60% on. When she handed back my last test, I only got a 58%; worse than before. The person sitting next to me did only a bit better at a 63%, and I heard other people complaining about lower grades, too. I was warned that this professor was really difficult, but I didn't imagine she would be THIS difficult. Her class set-up and my lack of adaptation to it could force me out of graduation.
The withdraw date for classes is April 17th up until 11:59pm. (Basically I can withdraw all day until the 18th). That gives me about 28 days to figure out my course and see if I can turn the grades around. If I can't, then I guess I'll just have to withdraw. Of all the issues I've been encountering lately... this one really bites, to be melodramatic. It hurts quite a bit, though, because I can't really talk to anyone about it, at least not in detail. If I talk with my parents or boyfriend about it, they're going to get super worried, angry, sad, et cetera. Yet, it won't do me a whole lot of good to speak with them about it, as they cannot help me. They all live very far away, and none of them speak Spanish. I cannot talk to my roommates, well, let's just say there's a mutual disrespect going on. I don't trust them, and it's not like they would have helped me anyways. There is always the option of trying to get a tutor or speaking to the professor, but if I'm going to go out of my way to do that, I might as well just spend more time studying on my own.
One thing is for certain, if I stay in the class and get to fill out the professor's class evaluation form... she's getting a lousy review. She blasts through her power-point notes way too fast for us to write down what she wrote, her test review sessions are extremely difficult to follow, and we meet 4 days a week, and essentially for homework (though she doesn't always grade it) she wants us to write a paper every day. This is NOT how you teach a history class and get students to memorize facts, names, and information. We go through 30-40 pages of our book a week... she either needs to slow down, make notes available online, or ease up on her grading.
In any case... I'm done with ranting and talking about this. It's emotionally draining. I actually dropped out of the Choir I was in just because I wanted to make it easier to focus on her class, and I've considered withdrawing from an extra class I'm taking sort of "just for fun" this semester. I don't attend much with the LGBT Center anymore, and I'm considering leaving Spanish Club, too.
I just hope so very much that I graduate and can move on with my life.